I’m looking forward to the 15th – 18th

“As he journeyed he came near Damascus, and suddenly a light shone around him from heaven. Then he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?” And he said, “Who are You, Lord?” Then the Lord said, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting”…
Acts 9:3-5

#journeytodamascus

Definitely would rather be married still. I don’t believe n divorce unfortunately and still love her trust me I wish I could shake it off… but her and Hadley were all I had left after what I have been through to loose everything everyone definitely rocked my boat this time … it’s why I just wanna get out of texas because it no longer serves me my needs and definitely had cost me everything. Sucks I got to sit here for 16more months cause I’m ready to go … if she don’t want me in her life I definitely don’t need to be in texas Truth be told. I’m just waisting away here without family or friends Haven’t seen McKenzie since 2019, Austin since 2020, addyson since 2021 and finally got to see Hadley after 6months. All I wanted was to be more sober heal and spend time with my family when I retired in 2018. To loose my wife this year in divorce after all we went through crushes my soul. Add that to loss of time with my kids destroying me … just say’n man it sucks now I have to sit here 16 more months it’s hell to be honest I just wish I could have niccole back and my kids because were all growing older and to much times already been lost. Unfortunately I don’t even trust anyone after what people tried to say I was doing fortunately none of it truth unfortunately it cost me absolutely everything

I pray more than the damn pope and have for most of my life… all I wanted was my health sobriety family a home a boat and to enjoy life

What I get nothing lost it all… definitely saying prays after this post! Of love is the answer GOD I love you and this hurts… I pray you help me because you know my suffering what I have been through what it’s cost me…

definitely discovering what loneliness truly feels like

I write a lot and post because eventually it will all lead to brighter days … can’t cross the bar of life without getting rocked by waves it’s not always flat seas and sunny days

#dmr