I think it shows strength and respect for my self and future Queen because since Feb2022 no form of intimacy what so ever of course I said GOD never again then someone showed me what love looked like and over the years I started praying for restoration a home a queen GOD has answered a lot of prayers got me through total loss got me to today. And I know GOD has a plan. GOD knows I have no home lost everything I owned survived a lot and GOD Restores I’ve lost 120lbs not on medication I’m atleast walking and living trust me after 20 years CoastGuard and what I went through since 1June2018 I’m thankful I’m alive took total loss got beat to near death to many attempts on my life but I made it another day… I’m positive I’m thankful I’m grateful I atleast have a bank card and passport pair a shoes couple pairs of clothes lost everything else but I’m still alive so Thank GOD for that and the 20 years saving lives for U.S. Coast Guard Thankful for that 2003 becamae a founding member of Department of Homeland Security thankful for that unfortunately I have nothing left but I’m alive and have memories to be thankful for because I saved lives when others couldn’t what we did was epic and protected America & Multiple Nations thanks to the 80’s I was motivated young 92-98 trained for it criminal justice 1/ criminal justice 2 great program learned everything you could and my mentor was a FBI Agent and Another USCoastGuard epic journey 98-18 wish I would have made it to 2028 and MasterChief But I did make chief and became the 374th coast guard Surfman we saved millions and the law enforcement the missions commanding gun ranges upgrading ports cyber systems tactical pursuit operations it all was epic the 3 lumbar fusions cervical fusions bilateral shoulder wrist surgery knee surgery was tuff the 26 prescriptions hell but thank god I don’t use meds and I have the body I do know trust me loosing my Surfman pin retirement sword shadow box all my military awards letters my medical records having my guns stolen medical records taken my wallet my vehicles ruined it was all hell not fun paying for a totaled Tacoma the last 8 months or a ruined bike from Harley I had just purchased before they jacked it! Not fun getting beat to near death and surviving that many attempts on my life specially in texas a place I defended 2011-2018 as RECOMForce Manager Ready For Operations Insoector and Chief of Operations defined horrible nightmare for me 1June2018 to 31mar2026 specially my sperm they are selling breaks my heart they stole 30 guns attacked me that much but GOD got me through it and thanks to a heads up from people I worked with ie INTERPOL HQ or Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) types I’m still alive made it to two consulates Cancun’s and Merida Mexico and now I’m praying restoration happens and a Queen A Home filled with LOVE and GOD amen to that