And no amount of alcohol tobacco or hemp or the 26 prescriptions I was once on helped me but pray does being honest does after 3 lumbar fusions cervical fusion (still have multiple herniated discs and fractures healed wrong in neck spine sacrum and bilateral shoulder and wrist surgery yes even afterwards (no thanks to texas had multiple injuries to both) knee surgery now very torn to hell along with calf tendons and fractures in legs and yes testicular reconstruction just to have my third daughter then they take her from me freeze my sperm and sell it! And yes I received even more injuries effects my visions smell hearing and my nerves the pain I’m in is only helped with prayer I trust My GOD fully im still alive in Mérida Mexico for a reason I just pray America blessing and security and freedom comes to me one day I miss my home nation my daughters and love the leadership I so bravely defend and its nation and states